Monday, March 24, 2008

A Trip Down Memory Lane

Maundy Thursday started off quite differently than expected. After the previous night of revelry, binge drinking and playing mind games, a phone call in the early morn was came as somewhat of surprise.

Shaking off the hangover, the voice behind the call was somewhat familiar, it was only seconds after that I realized that it was my dear brother, asking if he and his significant other could join the previously but hastily planned trip down south in the valleys of Tagaytay.

After asking my companions for permission, one that they immediately considered unnecessary, I got up and prepared for this long-awaited sojourn. Granted that having a drinking session last night was a probably a bad idea, but I was hell bent on going on this trip, by hook or by crook.

It was in my residence that we first gathered, my brother and his SO, and my long time douche bag that I otherwise call as a friend. Calling a cab to our house (surprising they're still active at this point in time), we headed to the next rendezvous point. An old friend of the days of our youth came in her brand new black Honda City. Suffice to say this trip was indeed down memory lane, literally. Considering that history between all five of us would span nearly a decade. God, I felt old.

Traffic was expected. Being stuck with four other people in a sedan may not be appealing on a comfort level, but the exchange of tales made the long crawl of the Godsforsaken South Luzon Expressway bearable. Shock and genuine interest hung in the air, finding out people you knew back in the formative years proved to be quite disconcerting. A sign that perhaps age has finally caught up with us and the calls of maturity would soon engulf our seemingly carefree lives. This and that were either married, getting married, had a kid out of wedlock, already up to their nth child or just left the country never to go back. Bah, it was silently agreed that our little collective would delay such things as long as we could.

The first stop was uneventful, a short break to partake of sweet, sweet nicotine and menthol, all the while discussing plans for the midday meal. While the agreement was that we were to dine in a restaurant not found in the Metro, we ended up in a pseudo-Italian restaurant.


In consolation perhaps, the view of Lake Taal made this lunch experience different from the usual. Brother dearest pointed out the crater of the small and dormant volcano submerged some hundred feet below the lake. Lake Taal seemed, at that time, a picture perfect example that even some of Mother Nature's most destructive tools can be beautiful, given the right form, in this case, dormant volcano that isn't spewing molten magma and covering the clear skies with its foreboding ash. A wee bit poetic perhaps and unfortunately, there might be more of that later on.

The meal was enticing, pizza ala Fruti de Mare, buffalo wings reminiscent of those found in Don Henrico's, Beef and Mushroom Calzone, and Putanesca that was a bit bland, save for the flavor given of by the capers and olives. I asked for a watermelon shake, only to complain that our friend got hers in a waaaay better glass. (I swear, the waiter either has the hots for her or that guy has something against mestizos, racist bastard). The topic was our juvenile exploits of yore. Granted, we've done this storytelling so much that the "Oh my god!" shouts gets old, but not this time.



The next stop was suppose to be Bag Of Beans, a quaint little coffee shop with a view of the lake. Instead, we ended in the cliff house, a little spot with a garden, posh restos and kids. Lot's of kids. We spotted a nice young lady and started debating whether said lady was one of the mother of those diminutive weapons of mass destruction. While the view was breathtaking - lush green valleys smothered in the cloud's shadows and all that - we couldn't help but feel that we were both too young and too old for the place. Families gathered lugging their little tykes of terror all over the place, elderly people sat in their tables, sipping coffee with wistful eyes looking at the horizon, perhaps reminiscing of the days, weeks, months and years that have gone. Our little quintet was content eating ice cream sitting on the bench while their world, these... vacationist, go on about their little businesses, whatever they may be.

It may sound strange, but sitting here with this group provided insight beyond your usual Sunday Mass sermon. Trusted friends have a way of providing the answers to questions that plague the mind, formulation of grand schemes comes easily and before you know it, the blue horizon turns gray, then black, while the bitter chill of the night finally strikes us motionless, forced yet again to marvel at the lake. Meh, poetry was never my strong suit and my prose is getting quite dull.

The trip home was far from melancholy. As the day ended, our club, this collective of young, spirited and relationship challenged group (save for my brother and his SO) would be the beginning of something good. Despite the day's premature end, this was but a mere taste of what was to come.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Labels

After finally conquering the mind blank that has plaguing me for weeks, I've finally slew the dragon that is my inability to find a topic and raise the flag of my so-called creativity to write this post. So the sane people of good taste may start quivering their in boots and pray that they do not fall into the 0.00001% of the population that reads this infernal and sorry excuse for a blog.

Now that we've gotten through the unnecessary and long-winded self-depreciation we can go on and place something after this sentence that relates to the title.

I'm a gamer and a geek. There is no denying that and I am rather proud of it. I like the idea that I am actually of above average intelligence (how humble) and be a complete dumbass at the same time. For the following months, I almost forgot this vital detail of my persona. Well, after the purchase of a portable gaming system (and the eventual repair of my gaming PC), I have once again acknowledged this detail as a core value of my existence.

But gamer and geek are just two of the labels that make up the entirety of this sad, deluded and charming entity (that would be me, but seriously, if you couldn't figure that out then I suggest you take a comprehension class). I'd like to think that I'm a fudie at heart and one of the few living conversationalists left on this Godforsaken earth. If you're familiar with Planescape, one could say I'm a bit of a namer to the Sensates (in other words, I value the experience or seek a variety of experience and appreciate them, negative or positive)

But to say that we, as sentient and feeling organisms, are made up of combinations of hundreds of labels would be stupid. We're not programs, this is why Artificial Intelligence, for all its' calculating consistency cannot contend with humanity's ability to be unpredictable.

If you've come this far, you're probably asking what's the point? I would then suggest that you drop your email address so I can send you a picture of that Nelson kid in the Simpsons pointing and laughing at you with his trademark "Ha! Ha!" But no. The point is, we can label ourselves all
we want, or other if we feel like it ('tis fun, mean, but fun, ask a certain emo person I know how much I derive pleasure from such a mundane activity) but we can never truly predict what we do or what we are capable of. Labels can give people an idea of who or what we are but they also give us room for surprises which I think what makes mankind the dominant species in God's green earth. So I say unto you, dear reader, cherish your entropy, it's what gives us the ability to nuke the whales.... and the sense not to.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

I Got Nothing

The thing about writing is, we always go through a phase wherein one cannot conjure the words or the idea needed to piece together a string of sentences that constitutes a written product. Many writers try different techniques to get "in the zone" or break through the much fabled "writers block". Yours truly could go on and give a few examples, but really, anything under the sun can be considered conducive in getting through "the funk" so to speak.

Whether the imagination has been depleted or the coffee was severely bad, or the usual object of scorn/admiration we find in the media was the same old drivel/gold mine we've seen or derived from, this "block" happens.

Fortunately (or unfortunately), this blog is about absolutely nothing. So I can pound away on my derelict keyboard like a monkey on some lethal combo of sugar-coated bananas and grade A speed and post random words and sentences as a poor filler for my shortcomings in imagination.

But truth be told, there is something fulfilling about getting away with absolute bullshit. It's certainly not the thrill of fooling innocent web surfers into wasting their precious 5 minutes (of course if you're still reading this, you're probably as bored as I am). It is perhaps, that through the composition of this post, I was actually able to beat the "block" no matter how ultimately deficient of value this post is. Well, maybe not deficient, but completely devoid would be more appropriate. Empty this victory over self-limitations may be, at the very least, I have an update.

So basically, I just admitted that I have absolutely nothing to write about, and wrote about it....

....

I don't know whether to be happy or depressed at how inexcusably bizarre that is.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Dying with eyes closed and an open heart

If you haven't watched the Bucket List, the movie gods demand that you do so immediately.

Like the many pieces of modern art that has been discussed in this contemptuous journal, this author would be damned if the philosophy encased within the thick lines of cinematography and dialog were not explored.

The premise seemed simple enough, two men about to die making a list of things (mostly reckless activities) before they "Kicked the Bucket". As one can easily surmise, this movie was just ripe with realizations and epiphanies packaged in either tear jerking moments or witty exchanges.

One could go on and just post a review but that's not the point now isn't it? Two quotes from other masterpieces of contemporary art kept popping up into my mind while watching this movie. "A Man's mortality is a compass that points his way in life." The quote, which is taken from Trias the Betrayer from the game Planescape: Torment, further illustrates that when we are faced with the inescapable truth of our own demise, we get direction. Why else are people rushing to gain riches or garner treasures whether they are physical or otherwise? While one can argue that this is not the consistent case with regards to the two main characters of the Bucket List, a closer look would tell you that they do indeed ascribe to this, the only difference being that after being faced with a clear time limit to their mortality, Morgan Freeman and Jack Nicholson's characters let go of the fear of losing their way, and in the case of Freeman, there is a scene that illustrates this clearer.

The second quote was actually an answer when a friend once asked what makes me happy: "Life... is strength. That is not to be contested; it seems logical enough. You live; you affect your world." The main antagonist for the second installation of the Baldur's Gate series is perhaps, contradictory to the nature of the plot. Then again, supporting characters and the main protagonists themselves illustrate just how living and the influence that comes with it is such a powerful force.

It was probably intentional that certain life inquiries like those of love, faith, logic and perception were thinly veiled in character dialog. Were we really watching a simple story, or a reflection of our thoughts with regards to living and dying? Such queries may not hit home immediately to some people, but for someone who has lost a loved one, these reflections become quite evident.

Monday, February 4, 2008

Seeking Perfection

Perfection is not the heaven we seek but the Purgatory that we secretly dread, knowing full well that once everything is truly perfect, there is nothing else to strive for.

Life is imperfect, and it is the imperfections that make it worth going through. While there is never anything wrong to aim for perfection in one's craft, what do we do after achieving ne plus ultra? Profit perhaps? Or maybe a sense of accomplishment? In the end, however, we all get a backlash of longing or the need to improve upon things further, be it the same piece or in other avenues.

Perfection is also relative, if not a myth, applicable only depending on who you ask. I daresay that the most perfect of lives are those that are imperfect. As any story goes, it would be pointless to have a protagonist go through chapters without struggle or not have at least one flaw. We've heard all the cliches from various chick flicks, "she had the perfect live etc.," but the common denominator always seems to be the longing for something more, beyond the this fabricated notion of a "perfect life".

Practice makes perfect, but the true worth and value of anything and everything isn't its perfection, but the practice that leads us to the point closest to perfection.

"To stand still on the summit of perfection is difficult, and in the natural course of things, what cannot go forward - slips back."

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Internet Marketing Bootcamp

And now for something completely productive and "uninane."

A compelling force has influenced me to post this, I know not the origin of this invisible hand. Yet it feels strangely familiar yet surprisingly alien all at the same time. I only pray that my weakening grip on reality and sanity will hold strong.



The Internet Marketing Bootcamp: Learn the Industry Trends

In recent years, the Internet has become a potent tool for selling products or services. It has also opened employment and income-generating opportunities to many Filipinos. So much so, Internet marketing has become the latest buzzword in the online sphere.

A series of seminars aims at sharing basic information on the creative and technical aspects of Internet Marketing. The “Internet Marketing Bootcamp” will run for six consecutive weeks from January 26 to March 1, 2008. Each session will be held from 8 a.m. to 12 noon at RCC Center, Shaw Boulevard, Pasig City.

Some of the country’s Internet Marketing luminaries from U.S. Auto Parts Philippines (USAP) will discuss the key concepts and strategies on this emerging field:

· Michael Joseph Villar, USAP Affiliate Marketing Manager, will give a crash course on performance-based marketing, how companies and individuals can benefit from it, as well as the challenges confronting affiliate marketing.

· Email Marketing Manager Alvin Jimenez will present the email marketing campaigns and their relevance.

· Rico Sta. Cruz, USAP Creative Director, will discuss the essential principles in Web design and how to apply them to the Web.

· Copy Editing Supervisor Jennelyn Tabora will talk about online copywriting and its crucial role in attracting and building readership.

· Search Engine Optimization (SEO) Project Managers Gabriel Libacao Jr. and Rhiza Sanchez will explain the basics of search engine marketing and how to convert visitors into sales and profits.

· Senior Web Analytics Specialist Maia Nuguid will discuss how Web analytics can help in assessing Internet marketing strategies.

Marc Hil Macalua, USAP Vice President for Marketing, will give the inspirational speech. Web Project Manager Elymar Apao will facilitate the Bootcamp sessions.

The Bootcamp is sponsored by the U.S. Auto Parts Network, the premier warehouse of auto replacement and performance part brands in the United States. One of the leading players in the Internet retailing industry, U.S. Auto Parts ranks among the top 100 online retailers in the United States in 2007.

The Bootcamp is open for all professional bloggers, Internet marketing enthusiasts, or anyone who has a background in Internet marketing. Interested persons may send their updated resumés at elymar@usautoparts.net or glibacao@mbsautomotive.com. Qualified applicants will be informed via a confirmation email.

Participants are encouraged to bring their resumes as a Job Fair will closely follow each seminar.

For further details, please visit the Internet Marketing Bootcamp site (http://www.usautoparts.com.ph/imb/), US Auto Parts Internet Marketing Bootcamp (http://www.usautoparts.com.ph/), US Auto Parts Official Website

(http://www.jobsdb.com/PH/EN/V6/JS/JobSearch/JobSearch.asp?PN=JobListing&pagename=adslist&searchtext=mbs). – US Auto Parts Job Listing

Contact Persons:

Elymar Apao
elymar@usautoparts.net

Gabriel Libacao Jr.
glibacao@mbsautomotive.com

It's Complicated™ part 2

Life is complicated.

We simplify it as much as we can but all we really do is arrange factors to a more favorable manner of handling complications. Relations with other human beings only adds up to a complicated mess of emotions, obligations, commitments and interactions.

Given that, why bother with a relationship at all?

Whether it is with a lover, a friend, blood relation or casual acquaintance, we seek such relations despite the added value of complicatedness due to the fact that we are social beings. We yearn for contact and connection. Whether it is physical or emotional, it hardly matters. It still gets a lot more complicated.

While living a life is complicated, it is through sharing that life - the experiences, beliefs and emotions and its totality - that we ultimately have a clear grasp on the realities we face. For in those complicated relations, we, at the very least, need not face them alone.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Clarity

This weekend presented a uniquely alien experience: A trip to a "divinely touched" location with the motivation of gaining guidance to obstacles that plague the perpetually troubled mind.

Hoping for an invisible hand to provide hints and clues on how to go about the mysteries and struggles of everyday seems like an idea born of desperation. Still, in a world that doesn't come with a user manual or a clear curriculum to achieving happiness, perhaps placing trust on a omnipotent being portrayed as a bearded man riding on clouds might not be so bad after all. Atheist may claim otherwise, but to each their own.

It wouldn't hurt to try, as they say. Given such an opportunity, the author asked for what was considered necessary at that given time: Clarity. Clarity on things that have been gnawing at the mind and the heart. Of course, with something as immaterial as faith, one can never be sure when such things will manifest. While being free of the burden of such worries is welcome development. Paranoia of missing or misinterpreting the signs (if such things exist) is always a possibility.

To paraphrase Cowper, The Big Man works in mysterious ways. And yet this begs the question, would it be so blasphemous to ask for a straight answer rather than work through a medley of riddles and omens? Perhaps, it is the act of actually undergoing such difficulties that will give us the clarity that we need, and the results are really mere afterthoughts rather than the true answers that we continuously seek.

Of course, in the end, it's really just a matter of faith, if not, perspective.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Movie Quote Trifecta

The truth shall set you free, but at the same time, the truth hurts. So the question is, can you handle the truth?

Saturday, January 5, 2008

It's Complicated™ part 1

"It's Complicated™" - Two well-known words in the average Friendster junkie's vocabulary that can easily generate a sudden spur of interest and perhaps unwanted attention.

It seems the invocation of this verbal pair is sure to elicit response from close and not-so-close friends to inquire about the story behind the sudden shift in relational status. Strangely enough, if this author is not mistaken, to claim that a certain situation or scenario is "complicated" is to avert the need to explain the situation outright, whether due to emotional and psychological stress with regards to the situation or inability to fully grasp the reality that is currently presented. And yet the mere sight of those two words betray that very purpose as everyone who is hypnotized by it's alluring gaze begins to pry and investigate on the juicy details of the moment leading to donning of such a label.

The wiser among us would prefer to never make use of the label, or at the very least, chose to ignore the clamor of the overly curious. Still, such trivial matters of Social Networking sites features and functions hardly touch upon the very concept of what is "complicated". Because if one were to truly stop and consider, everything, especially anything related to human relations and interactions, is complicated.